(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on...

-This past week was I'm sure some greater force(fill in the blank for me will you?), testing my resilance, my patience and my strength in my body, mind and soul. I hate what this situation has become and I have to hide away for a long time. They teach us to never wear our hearts on our sleeves...but then why live?

[Its like black death, I'm rotting and waiting to die]
]I had to let her go[

Then the cherry on the cake happened on the Friday before my 2 days of work in the CBC building in Toronto. Long weekend of tapes.

Anyways, this is a convo(my parts only) I had on a IM with a friend:
I had a shitty class today. My Understanding Stigma class, the teacher is not very skilled it seems and I left insulted and upset
We were talking about Sexism, Gender and Heterosexism in relation to stigma and I thought finally some interesting stuff for a change.
and the power point was all male female male female etc
and I said what about gender varients? and he said we'll talk about that stuff in a bit
and I asked if staying within a binary gender system(within the powerpoint) was an intentional example of heterosexism?
he asked me what I mean and I told him that he never once said that we're going to use bio male and bio females as examples. Perhapsnot all of us follow the binary constrictions he placed on us. Then
He said I didn't make the power point, and I suggested that maybe he should have looked at it, mention that bio males and females are just examples of gender but not the only genders out there and perhaps have added a thing or two about other genders and other sexisms that do not fall under heterosexism.
and hes like okay we can talk about it, then he brings up transgendered persons
I was like in my head'okay thats a start' and he said
and I fucking quote
"these a people who think they are the opposite gender than what they were born with"
I raised my hand and asked what he meant by 'think' and he said 'its a biological brain issue'
and I then asked "Biological brain function as opposed to a non biological brain? DSM IV TR anyone? Fuck.

THEN THE KICKER

he gets me to explain what the definiton of transgendered is, I do it and he says that he is not familiar to this subject.
I thought that it was big of him to admit that to the class, but HE CONTINUES TALKING ABOUT IT like he knows what he was talking about to the point of offensive discrimination. He says AFTER I EXPLAINED TRANSGENDERED!!! that transgendered is a lot like bi-sexuality.
and I didn't even put up my hand, I just said very loud and interrupted him saying that ORIENTATION and GENDER are very DIFFFERENT subjects with similar undertones but for you to say Bi sexuals are like transgendered persons tells me you have no idea what the fuck you're talking about.
The lesson kids today is: if you don't know what the hell you're talking about, do us the all the favour and STFU. You're probably being offensive and discriminatory.
Sure I could have said all of that with more manners and professionally, but if it wasn't rocked by passion; what would be the point of saying anything?

Annoying? Well thats one word for it.

Be safe Sah<3